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Sunday, May 22, 2011Y

Happy memories.... Sad memories.... Whether or not the memory is happy, sad, angry or disappointing....... they all hurt as much.........

I can only remind myself that he was the one who chose to give up...

The only reality to me is those words that he said to me on the break up.... Those words that will always remain in my heart..... He is very firm on the break-up....

I can only remind myself that everything has ended....

We faced the same problems that any couple will eventually face in their lives...

We both lost the confidence.. lost the trust.. lost our way.... We just do not know how to carry on...

I could have went to him and beg him back.... But no.. I didnt.... I cant gurantee anything...

People said he still has feelings....

My 5 senses tell me that it is not true at all.

Even if it is true...... we no longer have the strong feelings that can help us to overcome all our differences and problems........

I was dependent on him. I forgot how to fix my computer.

I was dependent on him. I didnt know how to trim noco's nails and flight feathers...

I was dependent on him. When i was really sick, he was the one who nurse me back to my health. I cld even hear his voice calling me when i felt really sick and helpless...

For all i know... i can only pick myself up and learn to live without him...

I learnt how to trim noco's nails independently..

I learnt how to set up a computer...

I learnt that i will eventually be left alone in future... Dad and mum wont be with me forever...i have to learn to look after myself...

怕安靜 (SILENCE PHOBIA)
I went to watch a movie alone.
I end up searching for you in the cinema.
People come and go.
I miss the times being yelled at when i was late.
I received an sms. But it is not from you.
Reading the sms only left me even more disappointed.
You can leave. But why leave behind so many dramas that we never get to watch.

I think i really fear silence. Without squabbling with you, Im not happy.
Once im home, i turn on the radio to drown out all of the silence.
Maybe in this way, i might be able to bear with the pain.

I think i really fear silence. I bathe with my headphones on.
Once the sounds of my video games stop, i fear i will recall everything again.
The one who nags me..The one who loves me.. I never cherished.

Your idol just released an album.
His songs are still as wonderful. But its still heartbreaking for me.
Each line in the song lyrics reminds me to give up.

I think i really fear silence. Without squabbling with you, Im not happy.
Once im home, i turn on the radio to drown out all of the silence.
Maybe in this way, i might be able to bear with the pain.

I think i really fear silence. I bathe with my headphones on.
Once the sounds of my video games stop, i fear i will recall everything again.
The one who nags me..The one who loves me.. I never cherished.

Maybe i should leave my alarm clock ringing.. Maybe i can wake up this way.
I dont feel like giving up. But love cant solely depend on determination.
Even if i manage to persuade you to stay by my side, i fear that you will only be more upset.

Loving someone doesnt mean that we have to be with that person forever.
I really fear the silence.
I dont feel like going out.
But i force myself out.
I roamed around the city. Went into the ktv. Sang your favourite song.
But the person singing the song with me is no longer you.

I realised that i really fear the silence. I fear that i can never hear you calling me anymore.
I sang my heart out in the kitchen. Listen to music on my sofa
Then i realised how much i loved you.
But you are no longer around with me...












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