Life just gets ever tougher.
Life is never easy to start with. I guess everyone else would just agree with it.
Many of times, ive asked myself whether this is the career i would wish to do.
Well, Ive always wanted to be a teacher.
And yes i am now one..
A lot of times... i guess its the passion that made me last till this day...
I managed to survive days without a leader in the centre.
I managed to survive the fate of being transferred from class to class and setting up from class to class.
I managed to survive the long and tiring meetings...
And guess what? There is just more to come...
I really dread this. But theres nthing i can do. I have also accepted that this will be the fate though deep inside i wish that things could be even better.
In this coming week, i will face with yet another uphill challenge.
A partner who has worked with me for all these months is leaving. Leaving behind a pile of students and also some challenging goals.
I will lead a class on my own. The workload i currently have will multiple by 2. its nothing to get excited about. Im already busy. This will only make me even busier.
Im perplexed over being bonded. I know very well that the chances of being bond will be just as high as mount everest. Yet i secretly hope that i will never be bonded as i really do not know how much longer i can tolerate if things remain as they are.
Sometimes after looking at others, i look at myself and thought about how worth while is this gona be.
Im doing charity everyday. I could have been paid better if i looked for other jobs...
And then again.. im someone who is neither here nor there.
I only possess experience and absolutely nothing related to this field. No cert. No diploma. No degree.
Leaving isnt a solution. I will end up in the same state as well.
Its already 11.30pm saturday. soon sunday is here. and im already suffering the monday blues.
i used to not bring work home. but now. bringing work home is a normal thing already. I reach home later n later.
Wishing for things to get better is never gona work out for me.
I can only open my mouth wide and swallow whatever thats right in front of me and move on with my life.
Im tired. But i can only move forward step by step even if ive to drag myself.
~*~Panda~*~
