Alrites! New blog skin! Feeling fresh?Actually, i didnt wanna change my blogskin... Unfortunately, the pictures of my previous blogskin are not showing up. So I took the pain to change my blog skin.. Looking at this current blog skin... I would say that the pain is worth it...Sometimes i feel that my life is just like a dream.. How i wished it was just a dream..The moment i wake up, everything will be fine and purely perfect..
How i wished that reality is not real and the entire world behaves the way i want it to be..Very often, things may not go the way we want them to be..
People often say that reality is cruel. Yeaps. It is. It gets cruel especially when the cold hard fact of what is has been thrown straight in your face.. Reality is often the toughest challenge that one has to face..And reality is often something that you just can not ignore it.. Even if you were to ignore reality, it gets right back at you twice as hard..
Do i sound emo ? Well.. i am.. But just a little.. Not enough for me to walk the planks and jump into an ocean of sharks...
Its about a month back when i was offered a job.. Well.. u guys know wat job it is.. I was thrilled.. I was happy..I was excited..I was relieved.. Everyone around me shared my joy.. As time goes by.. this job thingy seem to be a dream...
The sad fact is that i have not even penned down my signature on the letter of appointment.. It dragged for a month already.. I have no idea when will be the day that i stepped into the office to collect my appt letter and medical check up form. I did my part by calling the hr.. Each time, she explained to me that Sata has not revert back to her on the coy's corporate account.. She kept telling me that she will get back to me asap..
Sata is some medical clinic owned by gahment tat provides medical check ups.. With no pre-employment medical check ups, i can not start work. Gosh.. it went on n on for a month already.. The silly and naive me was waiting and waiting... i did apply a couple of jobs while waiting.. but there wasnt any positive response..
I feel so sian now.. I was brought to heavens.. and i slipped back to hell again.. Yaya..sure you will just say.. "Oh its just a job.. just carry on looking.." Sigh.. u cant feel the pain tat i felt.. True enough..its not the first time i fell to hell.. But it doesnt mean that it doesnt hurt to fall..
Now.. im crawling my way up from despair.. Gotta get back on my feet.. Ive gotta be back in a chirpy tip top form for a potential interview.. Its a reverse effect to go into an interview room feeling fucked up about life..
I spent a morning watching my silly bird, noco.. Yesh.. she is one silly bird who is forever clumsy.. .. She trips over anything for no reason.. She has this special ability to fall off her gym, her stand, her play gym, her toy or almost anything that she is standing on for no apparent reason.
Her eye sight is perfect.. she is able to balance herself... But she just has to be clumsy.. She doesnt look at where she is going...she doesnt take note of her own footings.. She just doesnt care..She will just walk straight ahead even tho there are obstacles ( e.g. metal rings, toys, etc) on the ground that can obstruct her way.
For the time span of 20 mins, she fell down 3 times from her cage toys. Twice, she rolled across her cage... She ends up on her back.. Once, she fell head first.. Seriously, im kinda worried for her.. If she was more careful (look before you step forward), these 3 falls would not have happened.. And sometimes i wonder if she is physically injured. =_="
And then she has to scare me by laying down flat on the floor.. I thought she suffered some brain concussion. And then she tried to do an egg roll on her cage floor.. sigh.. clowning around all the time.. after making me worried, her clowning acts make me smile..zzz...
Next , she just have to do this action.. look at the stupid bird in the pic below..
OK.. u wonder wats wrong with the pic..
That silly bird is hanging upside down right above her water bowl. She just have to drink water from this position..Knowing that she is born clumsy, im a lil worried that she will fall off and dive into the water bowl head first. ZZzz.. Will she drown?
~*~Panda~*~
