im so bored in office again.. hoping that time will pass faster.. i just wanna go home..
the bus 36 been crappy.. it arrives late now..meaning.. i reach home late too.. imagine waiting 15-20 mins for one bus 36... when im home..its about 6.45 to 7pm already.. =(
im feeling crappy againx...
2nd time im repeating tat word...
to me.. my future is like a blank...
my short term goals are... 1. wisdom tooth extraction... will be done next wk..if everything is going smoothly... 2. go on a holiday... qtss khakis are planning for a short trip to bintan or batam or just some island.. most likely i will just tag along with them... shah is organising it... gd job shah.. heres ur dog biscuit. =X
but i really wish for a llooooonnnnggger trip.=( maybe one tat lasts like a wk or more
and with all these.. i need capital.. and where capital gona come from.. from my job.. gar..
job again..
haix
im getting used to tis job already getting used to the daily depressed feeling of waking up..going to work in a job im sian of.. getting used to the sian feeling of being alone.. tho it creeps me gettings used to the cold chilling air con in my office gettings used to feeling ultra sian n depressed and crappy on mondays to wednesdays getting used to hiding in the toilet to hide watever shitty crappy nonsensical emo feelings im having... gettings used to talking to myself in the office getting used to stoning at my desk and worrying about my future and wat i want to do getting used to eating alone... yes..it sucks.. i hate it.. but yes... i rather eat alone sometimes... becos ive not much in common with my colleagues... getting used to the sick morning irritating feeling that tells me that i shld just quit n go eat grass... gettings used to losing my sleep getting used to losing my hair gettings used to the feeling of not wanting to eat becos im just too sian getting used to my gastrics getting used to complain about my job.. im cutting down on that.. haix..gimme some time getting used to complain to myself that it was my stinky decision to stay in this job.. ive only myself to blame getting used to surfing at job sites n screening newspaper..only to end up even more sick when i cant find any thing to apply getting used to the fact that ive let go of the rainbow..to speak the truth..i do regret a little... becos its like something tat i wanted to do..but it just doesnt pay well.. getting used tot he fact that im a stinky materialistic bitch who rather trade her suffering for money.. crap.. if ive extra 500 bucks..i would have taken up general anesthesia.... sigh..crap... im materialistic piece of junk..
and guess wat
im getting used to my stinky fark tud life... crap