MIssing someone...shah told me that he made 3 girls cry... i was curious..and i asked for the reason... and so he gave me a blog.. http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/2008_06_01_archive.html it belongs to a girl.... If u guys have remembered about the deaths of 2 saf guys... one of them is a promising pilot...he died suddenly during brunei's training... i read her blog posts since june.. its like..she was soo looking forward to his return.. and yet tragic happened... her post from june 18th was really heart-wrenching.. as i slowly read towards her recent posts.. i cant help but drop tears.. i feel sooo sad for her..his sudden death took away their dreams and hope... so many tears.. so many things undone.."We had Thai Express,A place we longed to go, but never had the chance.Even if you're prepared to go with me now, you can't."
"Only memories, Of what once was you.Missing your laugh, I will never again hear.That is the reality that fills me with so much fear.No more smile on your face,No more warmth of your embrace. . ."
"That was our plan . . . why didn't you stick to it?How am i going to have them all fulfilled when you'renot here with me?"
i can actually feel her pain and the feeling of missing him.. its really sad.... Life is unpredictable... cherish your loved ones...when it comes to cherishing...today im faced with a difficult situation..we brought lego to a vet...it seems that he will need surgery to remove the growth thats on his belly...otherwise, it will gravitate and end up affecting his internal orgains... hence he will die...the surgery will involve anesthesia and stitching will be done... there are risks involve in the anesthesia.. there are also risks involved during hte recuperation period.... once hte anesthesia is over, the hamster will go through pain.... vet says some hamster just die becos they cant take the pain....theres a risk of getting infection if the hamster removes the stitches by itself.. hamsters love to chew...lego is turning one already... the vet ruled out htat if i leave the tumour or growth on him... he will live for like another 6 months at the most... however..the vet also said that... the surgery has a high risk of death if his wound doesnt settle or he cant take the pain after surgery... ive to decide on the surgery asap... after hearing all these... i cant help but cry a second time today... i dont know wat to choose.. currently..lego is having hte best of his life..tho with the growth, he eats and sleeps well... i understand alot that food is everything to him... the surgery is not cheap.. it will cost rouhgly 120 sgd... its a lot of money to me... i risk losing lego if hte surgery is a failure... even if he progresses, there will be follow-ups and all of u know that hamsters usually live to 2 yrs... perhaps when he recover, he might go pass the 6mnths? i dont know if i shld subject him to the pain... u know... lego is such a crybaby... he will cry due to pain... i dont want him to cry... i just want him to be happy...the stitches will hurt him..its gona be a big big stitch up of his belly... sobs... why my lego....looking at him..happily chewing his food..its food tat all it wants...he is just so carefree...i shed more tears... ive decided to let him be this way.... i dont know if he will hate me for not bringing him for surgery.. but i cant just dont wish to suddenly lose him in the surgery or pay tat money to let him suffer the pain that he may die due to it..im so sorry.. i love u too much .. i just cant bring myself to put u in tremendous pain... i cant bring myself to put u in the risk of losing u suddenly due to a surgery...............
~*~Panda~*~
