been crying almost everyday.
my eyes are swollen. yea.....now an infection due to those drainage problem in my eye n nose. It got corked up ya see. blocked nose. watery eyes. then an infection....shouldnt cry anymore...shouldnt.......
i know its time that i should move on.
I held our memories dear in my heart.
He was hte last person i would ever wanna lose. He was my pillar of support.
But now he is gone. He chose to leave.
If he can find happiness without me, i would give him my blessings.
These few days have been bad for me.
somehow memories flow back to me.
i walked hte path we once walked. i could sometimes see him smiling at me. I went to the places we once had our smiles. Sweet and bitter.
Deep down....i know its just my imagination. yeah..i miss him...it hurts.
I have to get used to life without him. I have to hold myself together. grit my teeth and move slowly away from this deep pit that i fell into.
Loving someone hurts. Letting go needs a lot of courage.
I have to face the future alone. He used to be my shelter. whenever theres a storm, i just hide in his arms. Now im alone.
I told myself its ok to be alone. Its ok. I just have to be a stronger person.
He is no longer with me. I have to go on with life.
Though i told myself a million times not to think of him, i still do.
~*~Panda~*~
